Due to some recent events it’s been hard for me to get back in the swing if things but it has to happen. I am so full of excitement for this next place for me. I struggled with sadness for a minute and it almost consumed me but my faith got me up out of that crazy place. It called for sadness. Yes it did. And I still from time to time try to picture it turning out Differently! But It still does change. It’s done. Keep praying for me but know I am not under the cloud of depression.
Now I know that I am a Positive HIV’er, but does that mean I have to settle. Settle for another person who has a combo of things going on with them. I should say “what the hell!” I have HIV.
Are some HIV’ers settling because they feel they are already compromised. Listen that is BULL! You deserve much more but first you have to believe that yourself. I believe that this is evidence that you are in need of counseling or a support group. Sometimes we think that we have dealt with or accepted the diagnoses when really it has crept over into our self-esteem and altered our thinking. We have began to say, I just want to be accepted and have allowed any and everything to come in and sit in our lives. Accepting one thing that is common for the both of you and overlooking the things that matter such as love and protection, etc. Such as consideration and companionship or just the simple question of, do I even like you? You know what you desire and what you deserve. Time to talk through the garbage that you hear in your mind like, Nobody is going to want me or I am damaged and worthless because a positive diagnoses. You attract what you put out “sometimes” and sometimes you attract what you need. But you will not be able to tell the difference until you understand who you are and where you at this moment in your life! Become complete, fight for healing and mending of all broken places. Don’t settle because you will wake up one day and realize you didn’t have to and be disappointed with the choice you made while in your broken place!
My Day was something. Dr.s appointment was sticky. Lab day! Full Lab day. Everything. Nine tubes. Oh my Life.
Don’t get it twisted. I am very happy to be a live. So many people make suggestions on how I should live and what I should do with my time but I really am satisfied with who I am right now and the things I am doing. I mean just to be able to see my children everyday and laugh and just be alive. I mean just content.
Focusing on me.
I am careful about who I allow around me right now. Some people have a tendency to come into your life and feel you need to be fixed. I encountered a couple of people like that and it had me anxious and disappointed with my life and myself. It is of course some things that I am going to do but not because someone feels that would make them more comfortable with being apart of my life.
Well two weeks. Back to the dr. for Lab results.
Gotta keep stress out my life. If I want to live a long life.
Good Morning. This is the day that the Lord has made. We must continue to praise God through the tough times. He is able to exceed any issue that arises in our lives.
Believe in yourself. HIV is just a diagnoses. Don’t allow anyone to let that be your name live life full and free. Change you crowd if you have to and get around people who will enjoy life with you.
This is me no make up. I am beautiful. I love me. And that’s what matters. People want you to hide and disguise yourself so that you can be accepted.
Not me, I am proud
I am strong
I am powerful
I am free
I am
Jennice Jackson
The Truth is when you date someone that is positive like you, it removes the elephant from the room. We can now talk about each other instead of walking around wondering when is the right time to disclose. Will they accept me if I tell them? Should I tell them? What if this turns intimate? How will I do this? Me myself, I always lead with that fact. I choose to live that way. It takes the deceit out and also lets me know what I am dealing with from the beginning. Some say you shouldn’t do that. Well, to each it’s own. No room for madness. Now I have been married to a HIV negative man. But HIV was the never a problem it was strictly irreconcilable differences, lol! Love is Love. Love wants what it wants. Some negative people will say teach me. Some negative people will head for the Hills and some will straight up go crazy. Because the stigma is indeed still coursing through the veins of the ignorant. Sad but true. So much info. out there.
Dating Negative for some is not even on the table. Their world is the positive world. Their friends are positive while some associates are negative. Then again I met someone positive who got upset because I was so open with my status. But that is my decision.
Do I have to tell? We are using Condoms! I am protecting myself and them!
Salvation After HIV/AIDS 