Did i chose to be positive. Many people have there answers for this. Some say a lifestyle brought you to this place. But who really know the whys of the whys.
I just want to talk about rejection and how I feel about it. You are the perfect person if you were not positive. You are beautiful. You are awesome. I love you. But I can’t take a chance on getting THAT! Crazy thing about it is that I am not mad. I could go into a long drawn out explaination of what HIV is and is not but who cares really. I am to the point to where I don’t even want love anymore. I don’t want to be bother and most would say that is the best way to be. Considering the way your immune system is set up. I use to be in the fight to educate and bring awareness. But the journey just bringing people into a place of knowledge still means I have to dig through all the garbage of THE STIGMA to get to 1 or 2 people that may want to hear the truth. And that may only be because some one in the family or a friend is dealing with or have died from the Complication of AIDS. HIV the Virus the leads to AIDS. A compromised immune system. You are more of a treat to me than I am to you. But it’s to much for you to learn. When you meet someone you genuinely like and they tell you “I am HIV POSITIVE” The future escapes you and you now have been saved from a waterfall. The individual that is positive no longer has a brain, likes or dislikes, hobbies or passion, and their existence is void. Now only three things Stand H…I…V!
Today is a very Important Day. It is the Day that the Person Reading this blog will make a decision to go get tested. Knowing your status empowers you to take control of you life. Living in the unknown could mean death to something that can easily be managed. Things have change when it comes to a positive diagnosis and that prognoses of death. Medications have improved in leaps and bounds. Living a Long and healthy life is still yours. The thing is early detection. You are not sentencing yourself, you are preserving your life. Not just for you but for your loved ones. This is not just about you. Don’t you want to know. I hear a lot of people say “we are all going to die from something”. That is a sad mind set. I am hoping you understand that while you have life you want to live it to the fullest. And whether your diagnosed positive or negative it is still a step toward bettering you. Taking Responsibility for you. Say you have sex with someone and don’t know you are positive. You have now irresponsibly put someone else at risk. We have a stigma behind this dis-ease and it is causing others stay unknown. Mainly because they do not want to be associated with HIV/AIDS. so now you have placed social acceptance over living. There are many people positive but equipt with enough information to protect themselves and live long lives but most importantly to equip others.
Salvation After HIV/AIDS 